I’m a Capricorn, and oh dear! Us goats are renowned
for plodding slowly and inexorably up the mountain until we
reach the zenith. In my life, this has meant ‘work,
work, work’! - a focus on work to the exclusion of just
about everything else. I plodded my way from ‘temp
secretary’ to ‘second vice president’ in
a big American company in about eight years. It was
fun. But my life was almost all about work. Then,
in Bali, I had a child, escaped work of a conventional kind
almost completetly for four or five years. Now it seems
it is time for me to get back on my path. Eeek!
So, what is ‘the path?’ Well, it’s
about sharing our unique gifts. Giving our unique talents
to the world. Finding and realising that very special
thing that shines within us, that only we can do. What’s
yours? Do you know? Go quiet a minute and seek
the answer within. When I asked the moon that question
recently, the reply was ‘to love and to sing’.
Sometimes the vision is very simple! Then we just need
to work out what it means in practical terms! Trust
whatever comes. Simple is good!
‘ To love and to sing’ is about doing sound healing,
which is my unfolding path and my secret talent! Performing
in a band is the part of this, and when I get up there, I
am so filled with joy that there can be no denying that THIS
IS IT! If your idea of what is ‘your path’
or ‘your purpose’ fills you with dread or apathy,
well, you haven’t found it yet! Trust that your
true path will be the very thing that really makes your soul
sing, and hold out for that. Maybe there’s a small
part of what you are doing now, that makes your soul sing?
If that’s the case, get creative – how can you
expand that part of what you are doing, and offload the bits
that don’t fill you with joy? My bit of creativity
was to find a great karaoke bar in Seminyak where I can practise
singing in front of a live band! Wheee! Instant
stardom! I’m still pretty lousy at the moment
but hey, it’s an easy and quick forum for practising!
I love it!
Sorry, but usually, no mysterious angel appears with a stone
tablet denoting what your path is. Instead, it’s
an unfolding that happens one step at a time. It’s
a discovery of ‘who we are’, not just ‘what
we are doing’. Try to ask every step of the way
‘is this the right step?’ it’s much better
that way – a fixed destiny can mean that once we eventually
get to that mountain top goal, without testing each step of
the way, we might end up saying ‘eh! How did I get HERE?
This is not where I want to BE!’ because, of course,
our path changes and evolves as we walk it. It is not
fixed. Let it unfold, one step at a time.
The other problem is... FEAR! The old favourite
that stop us doing, oh, oodles of things! If you feel
you ‘should’ be doing something other than what
you are doing, then either different parts of yourself are
in conflict (one part wants to do it, the other part doesn’t)
in which case, you need to get these different aspects of
your being to have a chat about it... Or, you are afraid of
manifesting your dream. The way over and around fear
is to articulate to yourself what you are really afraid of.
Write on a piece of paper ‘I am afraid that...’
and keep filling it in until all your fears are listed.
Common fears include ‘fear of success’ –
we are often afraid of overwhelm if we get what we really
want! Here are some examples of my fears about being
a sound healer: I am afraid that... if I am a successful
sound healer my dear ones will be intimidated and won’t
love me any more... I will have to work long hours/late at
night and I don’t want to...I will have to stand up
and make sounds in front of people and I am afraid of looking
stupid... Once the fears are out, it’s not so
hard to handle them. I just need to organise things
so that the problems are not an issue (talk to the dear ones,
arrange timing, overcome fear of looking stupid by first performing
in front of small group, etc).
And OH GOD I am so excited and I so want to do this!!
That’s a good feeling! Well we got there
in the end! So will you, if you just trust yourself,
trust your inner voice, and take one little step at a time.
Follow your bliss – what really makes you feel
happy and excited. Best of luck – the world needs
and wants your gifts!
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Jeli Lala is an intuitive visionary with a playful and creative
approach to healing. Her gifts of channeling light and information
from other realms and her loving sensitivity have helped many
people along their path to wholeness.
Jeli welcomes comments and may be contacted on:
Email: jelila@jelila.com
Website: www.jelila.com or www.imagine-retreats.com
